Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Birthdays :)


HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY KATE!!! Save some room for chocolates and wine when I get back. :)

Monday, February 18, 2008

Welcome Anna!

Little Miss Anna arrived today. Congratulations to the happy parents, KB and Dan. Happy Birthday Anna :)

isn't she cute!!!

Saturday, February 16, 2008


I saw this movie last night. I actually bought the dvd this week. It is Ecuador, don't ask. I LOVED it. Very funny and cute. Defintely watch it.

At the end of the movie, none other than my favorite John Mayer has a song and I thought it was very pertinent to my life now so without permission, the song is

"Say what you need to say

Take all of your wasted honor.
Every little past frustration.
Take all of your so called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations.

Say what you need to say

Walkin' like a one man army,
Fightin' with the shadows in your head.
Livin' up the same old moment
Knowin' you'd be better off instead

If you could only...Say what you need to say

Have no fear for givin' in.

Have no fear for giving over.
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say again.

Even if your hands are shaking,
And your faith is broken.
Even as the eyes are closin',
Do it with a heart wide open.

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to, Say what you need to..."

I look forward to buying the cd when I get home.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

My requests

So I have a few requests for you back in the States. There are a couple items I cannot buy but must have because they are limited edition and I enjoy good snacks. All you have to do is make a small purchase, set them aside for little old me, and I will pick them up when I get home. I will also bring a nice gift from Ecuador for you for your troubles.

Here they are and yes they all pertain to food and drink:

1. Wild Cherry M & Ms. Apparently they are limited edition until April. Any size bag will do. I just want to try them because I heart cherries so much.

2. Cherry Chocolate Diet Dr. Pepper. I believe Whit took care of this but a few more cans will not hurt me. Again, I heart cherries and just want to try it. This is also on the shelf for a short time.

3. Girl Scout cookies. I do not discriminate my friends so please oh please take pity on my plight and load your freezer with a few boxes of deliciousness. I will love you forever.

4. Rachael Ray Magazines from now until June. I know, I know.

5. Red hots. Yum. The only thing better than cherries is cinnamon.

6. Candy hearts. Like the little conversation hearts. Big or small doesn't matter.

I am sure I will add more when Easter rolls around and I cannot buy Cadbury Eggs.

That is all I can think of for now. I truly feel a little out of touch with things there. I only get to read news on the Internet and to watch the Hong Kong British version of CNN. Therefore, I really have no idea what else I am missing out on. Feel free to inform me. I miss you guys and love you dearly.

Muchias gracias por todo!!!

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Many Thanks

Just wanted to thank everyone who has written, mailed, and wished me good luck and happy thoughts. It means a great deal to me and I cannot convey enough how nice it is to hear from everyone. Once again, I am astounded by all of your kindness. Hugs!

Good Intentions

So a friend just sent me this article to ponder. I have to say it is very enlightening and slightly disenchanting for me.

The author is Ivan Illich and it is about Americans helping abroad in poor Latin American countries.... I cannot say I disgree with him but it still does not sit so well.

Take a look ...

Help a Friend

So while my plight only lasts until July 3rd (maybe even sooner), the plight of my friend is just beginning. I humbly admire her and her family's courage after her husband was seriously injured in a freak accident that left him paralyzed. Please help her and her family cope with the tragedy so they can move on to overcome it.

Read their Story

Support their cause

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Party Like a Rockstar...or Grandmother in this case

So beginning last weekend through Tuesday was Carnival. It just so happened that the abuela's birthday fell on "Fat Tuesday". We headed over to her house to celebrate her special day. All was normal for the first half hour. We greeted everyone, sat down to chat, and I received the newspaper from the abuelo as usual. Eventually the children were moved by the spirit of Carnival and took their enthusiasm out on each other in the courtyard. They were COVERED in espuma, a.k.a. very intense foamy silly string. Not too long after, the the uncles and fathers joined them. My host mom was also in on the action, as she is rather fond of the children and fun. The rest of us sat at the table in the kitchen drinking beers. Aunts, sisters, the abuela, cousins, and I were in the kitchen when all of a sudden one of the men came in with a huge can of espuma and DOUSED the kitchen and all if its inhabitants. IT WAS EVERYWHERE!! I will never forget the laughter that came of out of the abuela's mouth. She was completely pink with foamy chemicals laughing hysterically. That was the beginning of the war. The espuma led to water, which then led to flour. The house was a disaster and totally cloaked in liquids and powders. I spent a good half hour hiding in the bathroom with my host dad's sister. We were soaking wet with cold water and trying to keep the others from adding flour to the mix. Just crazy!!! So what started as an innocent party for the grandma turned into a Carnival celebration that included the entire family. I thought I would avoid all this by staying away from the city of Guaranda where they do this for four whole days straight but with buckets and more liquor. Once again, my host family never ceases to show me a good time.

Saturday, February 02, 2008

Feeling kind of blue

I haven't written in awhile because I think I am depressed. I am not really sure what that is because I have never experienced it before so this is kind of what I imagine it would be like. I miss the happy Cupcake.

I am tired of getting sick. I am tired of having amoebas (again). I am tired of being scared of food and drinks. I'm tired of not being able to hear out of my left ear and of the headaches I keep getting. I'm tired of being poor. I had more money when I was in high school and just babysitting. I'm tired of the hole in my back molar that is getting bigger. I am tired of not being able to go to the doctor because the Ecuadorian government hasn't paid me in more than TWO MONTHS. I'm tired of having to go to the doctor in the first place. I'm tired of being fat because all I dare eat is chocolate, Doritos, and popcorn. I'm tired of having bad skin. I've never in my life had bad skin before and I have no idea what to do with bad skin. It freaks me out.

I'm tired of being freaking freezing because it won't stop raining. I hate the god damn rain. I'm tired of not being able to wash my clothes because it won't stop raining. I'm tired of everything being damp and of all the holes in my clothes because of the crappy water and the sun I haven't seen in weeks. I am tired of my wardrobe and the shitty umbrellas and pens that only last a few months. I am tired of the terrible notebooks and poor quality paper.

I'm tired of sleeping on a quarter inch "mattress" that sits on wooden slates, which is like sleeping directly on those wooden slates. I am tired of not being able to fall asleep and of not wanting to leave my house. I'm tired of not being able to do things or buy things and for waiting for my pay check, and I am really tired of fighting with our institution about striking and the money they owe us. I am tired of people speaking Spanish in English class and of being in a country "to help" when they don't even want us here.

I am tired of rice and chicken and of dumping gross hot milk down the drain in the morning. I'm tired of not having a good breakfast and of feeling dirty all the time. I am tired of the sucky shower and of not being able to join a dojo. I am tired of missing the people I love and not being able to talk to them. I'm tired of always getting ripped off and of being judged. I am tired of grouchy people and of my host sisters always fighting and whining. I am especially tired of being woken up at 6:30 a.m. on weekends and of eating dinner at 10 p.m. I'm tired of getting up at 5:30 a.m. and of studying Spanish but still sucking at it. I am tired of not being able to buy English books or magazines.

I am extremely tired of feeling like ping pong is being played in my gut and of people not writing me back. I'm tired of my phone never ringing and of needing a haircut but not being able to get one. I am tired of wearing gloves and two pairs of socks to bed. I am tired of not being hugged in months. I am tired of gross men saying stupid things to me and blowing kisses at me in the streets. I'm tired of people asking me why I don't have a boyfriend or why I am not married or what my religion is. I'm tired of paying $1 an hour for the internet and of not having my computer. I am tired of waiting and of not having a bathtub. I am tired of being alone and of bad beer and not having the things I am use to or not being able to do the things I used to do.

I'm tired of my feet being dirty and cold and of not being able to wear flip flops. I'm tired of having to watch my bag all the time and of having to be home by 9 p.m. and of always having to watch myself to avoid getting robbed. I'm tired of depressing people, crowded buses, and the word "siga". I hate my shitty pillow. I am tired of not making a difference and of people not caring. I am tired of the bullshit. Most of all, I am tired of Ecuador and of feeling this way.

I would like a real hug from someone who loves me. I would like clean clothes and pants without holes in them. I want new underwear. I would like clean vegetables and a long hot bath. I would like a massage and a nice workout at my dojo. I would like to be amoeba free and healthy. I would like to feel warm. I would like to sit in a bookstore with a hot apple cider and to peruse the new releases. I would like to volunteer somewhere I actually make a difference. I would like to drink gin & grapefruit juice, watch TV, and make dinner with my friends. I would like to drive around listening to music with the heat on full blast. I would like to drink some decent beer and to eat a blueberry muffin. I would like to open box 10598 and find good magazines to read. I would like to eat popcorn and drink good wine. I would like to talk on the phone any time I want.

Most of all, I want to feel like this year wasn't a waste.

months down, five more to go....